It’s funny: people talk about how easy it is to find places on the internet about how to kill yourself. But, when you go looking, there’s actually very little. The “joke” sites far outnumber the serious ones. In fact, the only true serious one I’ve ever found is lostallhope dot com. It alone appears to have serious and well-researched information available on different methods.
But I’m serious about the Vipassana meditation and that book I mentioned. It sounds clichéd to say that “it opened a whole new world for me”, but, well, it opened a whole new world for me. And mindfulness meditation really is the best way to deal with rumination, which is the real driving motor behind depression.
Finally, while I support anyone’s rational decision to end their life, if you’ve come to the conclusion that your brother will quickly recover from your death, I think you are mistaken. Like I said, I support anyone’s RATIONAL decision to end their life, and rational decisions require good data. That includes good data on the different suicide methods AND good data on how our death is likely to effect our loved ones. And having someone at all close to you kill themselves is, generally speaking, devastating in both the short and long run. This is why I advise making the list and trying EVERYTHING you can think of both so you can avoid hurting others and, far more importantly, that you have a shot a having and enjoying life!