Im not depressed, or i think im not. I fail to see what others tell me. I have a verbally abusive dad and slightly over bearing mother. Add few friendd, a grand total of 60 bucks to my name, college debt, poor grades, lack of confidence, and i dont know what i am. I dont have the worst story. Bullied til o was 17, hated by my dad since i could talk, and hurting from massive amounts of medical bull. Its enough for me to considet suicide. Noone will ever hire a second rate guy from high school with struggling college grades who cant stand for more than a minute without severe pain. I feel doomed… i know some might miss me but still, i dont know… its on the table. Risk a hard life or end it now. Its starting to sound better everyday. Has been since i was 10.
Sorry for rambling… i just feel my place isnt in society but rather, dead and no longer a leech.
Still trying to work it out…