So I guess I’m wondering if there is any difference in being dead in LA or NY. Not that I’m partial to either, but if I just go ahead and off myself in LA I would save a couple hundred for the plane ticket to New York. I guess I feel more comfortable in nyc, I know the area well and it would be nice to be there, something about the city I guess. It was the first place I really felt free. That would take a little bit more planning and less money to reimburse other people. Either way a hotel is pretty easy to get. I never really expected my life to change. I just don’t want to deal with other people always trying to bother or help me. And then they get angry at me when they help, even though I didn’t ask for it. Tried to show I appreciated it and thanked them. But you know, it doesn’t matter. I realize death is the way to go. Life is temporary and I don’t care to struggle like everyone else. The people I have met I hate. Truly hate. They will probably soon start forcing people to take medication so I don’t plan on waiting for more of my rights to get stripped away. We live in a pretty sick world. They already force institutionalization. If the mental hospital has taught me one thing, it’s not to mess up. So more and more research I guess. I’m probably going to try hanging this time, pain doesn’t really bother me. I always thought those who accidentally died of auto-erotic asphyxiation were pretty lucky. It’s too bad I don’t get off on it because it would be a pretty awesome way to go. The other more protracted plan is to get my hand on the ever coveted painless ********. Either way being alive is more trouble then it is worth. So I guess pitch in your thoughts if you would like me to have a more painless death, if not, don’t bother.