Errr-sorry about the unsupportive manner in which I was attempting to “help” the poor upstanding father to cope,just then…It was Tough Love..and I think it can be very effective if applied the right way….I really do love this site and honestly it helps me quite a bit. I dont want to get 86’d out of here,guys.
For some reason,that seems to happen to me wherever I go and fairly frequently.(???WHY???)I feel so persecuted sometimes.Prob because im so pretty..Yes,I think that must be it.Jealous and Unattractive people are behind this campaign of persecution:):);) (JK)
Seriously though,I cant stand homophobic people. Makes me get a bit nutty. Iv been laying in bed for a very long time,but that post really gave me a charge. But still- I dont want to get up.I dont want to leave th house.I DO feel like taking about 16 Benadryl tablets ,though and spacing out on Kaotic or BestGore. Its very annoying not having good drugs-im sure we can all agree on that. Maybe a Sacha Cohen film can shake me up a bit- I thought about just walking away from my life again yesterday ,which comes over me sometimes, but I cannot do it bc of my commitments…then I thought again about making a film and i made some more notes on that. I have so many good ideas,and I fear I will never do any…what do you do when youre paralyzed by your thoughts and emotions ?I thought about giving myself a fairly serious self injury recently-like a broken bone-,to break up the rut im stuck in…get some good drugs..lose a few pounds from th drugs killing my appetite….Yes,Thats really fucked up,but it crosses my mind quite a bit. Ugly ugly stuff ,all. I need to just get UP and live my life but I DONT FUCKING WANT TO.Im mad and sad because I didn’t get what I wanted and I dont want to participate any more. whaaaaa,what a big ninny I’ve become.FUCK .Should I check myself in to treatment for my depression? Can I learn to function better if I go into th crazy house? Im so paralyzed