Lately, I’ve found myself feeling more lonely than before but I really can’t complain. My eyes have been opened to many different observations. Right now, I’d just like to rant about one in particular. I can post a blog on here, and usually I get about 5-10 comments of support or people asking questions, etc. Point being, someone will reply. Maybe not right away, but someone will take the time to make an effort. I greatly appreciate it.
However, most people in real life have friends or at least concerned aquaintences..right? Majority of people…So, over the course of the past week or two, I’ve been getting more and more tired of being lonely, sitting in my depressing ass apartment doing nothing. So, naturally, I started texting people, snapchatting, facebooking, tweeting, etc…pretty much any form of communication, I’ve tried. All of my so called “friends” seem to be able to receive messages but can’t send any back. I”m so glad that I work so hard to accommodate everyone into my life only to have doors slammed into my face. I wonder what will happen the next time a big crisis happens in their lives and I’m not around to give advice, calm them down, and help them get a handle on the situation…It’ll be a shit show and hopefully they take away the correct lesson.
If you’ve read any of my previous posts, this is not who I usually am. I’ll attest to that. But there comes a time, when you have to cut the dead weight from your life. If I’m going to get out of this slump, I need people around me who will support me and want to talk to me when things are going well as well as when things are going badly.