I honestly believed I would never feel suicidal again or cut mysef, but lo and behold both started again today. Its been two years since I cut and 3 since my last suicide attempt. Also I was positive I would never feel like this because of a chick, but as im sure you can guess, that is the reason. It might be because I had to talk her down from suicide 3 nights ago. She just got “raped”, maybe(pathological liar), and i was the only one she wanted to talk to, I spent two nites with her just holding her. But we hadnt even seen eachother in like a month. We were together everyday for 2months she would spend the night we would go places. Then we talked about how we werent actually boyfriend and girlfriend, and the next day.went.to shit. Everyone was on molly she was flirting with all my homies and she kissed one and if.i was asleep would have fucked him. She still talks to him and sees him but then wants to still be with me like we’re together, and hes my best friend from where i just moved to.I cant handle they way she plays me, and I cant deal with her problems when its killing me inside. I had finally had my life together……I WANT TO DIE……..I cant believe I cut myself again.