I honestly believed I would never feel suicidal again or cut mysef, but lo and behold both started again today. Its been two years since I cut and 3 since my last suicide attempt. Also I was positive I would never feel like this because of a chick, but as im sure you can guess, that is the reason. It might be because I had to talk her down from suicide 3 nights ago. She just got “raped”, maybe(pathological liar), and i was the only one she wanted to talk to, I spent two nites with her just holding her. But we hadnt even seen eachother in like a month. We were together everyday for 2months she would spend the night we would go places. Then we talked about how we werent actually boyfriend and girlfriend, and the next day.went.to shit. Everyone was on molly she was flirting with all my homies and she kissed one and if.i was asleep would have fucked him. She still talks to him and sees him but then wants to still be with me like we’re together, and hes my best friend from where i just moved to.I cant handle they way she plays me, and I cant deal with her problems when its killing me inside. I had finally had my life together……I WANT TO DIE……..I cant believe I cut myself again.
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Fuck her! I know she was feeling bad before but I hate when people toy with you like that. Mess with your head and get you all worked up. Seriously fuck her. You deserve better.
You should just stop seeing her. All she does is toy with you. Ignore her.
I know that. Ive tried twice to stop seeing her but she ropes me back in. I do like her alot, it sux. The day before that happened to her.I totally ignored her while we were with our friends.
Thanx for having my back tho. She is scandalous.
Could you try talking to her about it? Ask how she really feels. If the anwser is no it might hurt alot but at least that pain will go away. The way she treats you is like a cycle of pain, it might stop it.
If she says yes than you should tell her to stop. Be up front about it.tell her to stop toying with you. I know it’s easier said than done. But just imagine you might feel better afterwards.
Well i mean i know she likes me alot. She hasnt had sex with these guys and im the only one she does. Theyre my friends, so they kno that I didnt even like this chick AT ALL until I got to kno her. So I know she really likes me and she puts me before them when we’re all together and she makes it obvious she wants to be with me while we’re around them. But i dont think either of us are ready for a realationship. Maybe im the bad one, maybe i strung her along but never made the.comittment. I kno its what she wanted, but dont kno anymore.
Maybe you guys should just sit down and really talk about your relationship? Maybe during the conversation you will find how you truly feel about her?
Then you could see if you guys really can’t do a relationship. And agree to be friends. Sometimes when people share emotional feelings or spend time together in a bad time then you feel something you think is love in thst way. Most times its just a strong bond and you can’t see the difference. She might not be able to either. So a talk might really help.
Np I’ve had to suffer from ppl like that before.
Well i mean i kno i dont love her, but I do kno I like her alot. Im just such a mess rite now cause for the third time I thought I was out of this I got pulled back in. Last time i told her we shouldnt hang out and she kept saying I wish there was.something i could say to change your mind. I should definitely take your advice though and talk to her. Thank yoy for your help.
Your welcome. I really hope you guys can figure things out. I hope you can get out of this hole and stay out.