ive been up for 2 days now, no sleep. im so damn sad. ive got no friends to tell things to. ive got an issue on my hands. a very big damn issue.. dont know what to do. when someone asks me what’s wrong, that just makes the whole situation a lot worse. Hysterical crying begins because of my shittiness and non self-worth. honestly, im not good at anything, i really dont like people that much, and the people that i do like, i’ve pushed every damn one away. I’m pretty sure i’m bi-polar now, cause i went through one of those mania phases last night & today as well. I fucked up real bad, don’t know how or if i should even put the pieces back together. waiting for a sign of hope, as to why i’m even still here. i need someone to help me feel alive again, like i have a purpose. but that probably wont happen, because this is not a fairy tale or anything close to it.
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I’m in a similar situation stranger, minus the loneliness. I have people. And because I think the same you’d think I would tell you what you want to hear, but I don’t know what to say or what you want me to say. Who are you?
Hi. I have been diagnosed as bipolar, I know what those sleepless manic nights are and I’m sorry you’re feeling so alone, but you’ve said nothing that I and many others on this forum can’t relate to. The loneliness, pushing people away, feeling worthless – that’s universal stuff. When you’re most alone you have the most company, it’s just that you don’t know it. Suffering is unavoidable in this world, look at Robin W, think how alone he must have felt at that moment.
We’re here for you if you need to talk some more to people who get it, if you prefer to hear a human voice maybe call a hotline or something, they’re not my thing, I like to see someone face to face but we’re all different, so think about what’s best for you and what you need right now.
Probably your priority is to actually get some sleep, and if you can’t you need to see a doc and be prescribed something that will help you sleep. If you ARE bipolar, not sleeping for more than two nights will likely tip you into mania…after years of coping with this condition I’ve learned never to let that happen.
Thinking of you, please take care of your good self, you matter and are important!