ive been up for 2 days now, no sleep. im so damn sad. ive got no friends to tell things to. ive got an issue on my hands. a very big damn issue.. dont know what to do. when someone asks me what’s wrong, that just makes the whole situation a lot worse. Hysterical crying begins because of my shittiness and non self-worth. honestly, im not good at anything, i really dont like people that much, and the people that i do like, i’ve pushed every damn one away. I’m pretty sure i’m bi-polar now, cause i went through one of those mania phases last night & today as well. I fucked up real bad, don’t know how or if i should even put the pieces back together. waiting for a sign of hope, as to why i’m even still here. i need someone to help me feel alive again, like i have a purpose. but that probably wont happen, because this is not a fairy tale or anything close to it.