I feel like I’ll never emotionally connect with anybody. I have changed quite a bit in high school, since many of my friends moved away after elementary. I’ve become more cynical and depressive since then. People just don’t like a bitter personality. Also, admittedly, I’m lazy, but not couch potato lazy: I rarely watch TV because the news is depressing and reality TV is just a distraction from reality, so I either go on the computer or sleep. Many see this as a flaw and something that should be changed, but I think that this is who I am. I believe that life is pointless and can’t determine how long I’ll be able to hold up before my ambition completely collapses. I wish I could just curl up on the ground and die. Of course, the people I tell this to keep telling me that I need help. If help comes in the form of some antidepressants, I’ve already tried it. I’ve tried therapy and it hasn’t helped.