General Pills and potions by YukiK 8/5/2014 written by YukiK 8/5/2014 getting high to forget my lows. its become a habit for months now. I can’t seem to stop. The longest ive gone without being high had to have been 4 days. I know i have a problem. I just dont care to do anything about it, i mean whats the point? highmeanPillspointstopwhats 3 comments 0 Email Related posts They meant a lot. 10/21/2021 Recovery 10/20/2021 I Just Want to Go 10/20/2021 No choices left 10/20/2021 The brink of addiction 10/20/2021 I think I’m being abused 10/19/2021 I’m not going to make it to 50 10/19/2021 Living Without Motivation 10/19/2021 Cold 10/19/2021 Shades of death 10/19/2021 3 comments Stargazer 8/5/2014 - 10:10 pm I like taking meds to feel like a zombie (painkillers, sleeping pills, others) so I get it. Never been high before unless what I’m doing is getting high… idk. I agree though I’ve lost all care and blown caution to the wind. Life really sucks and it makes it better or helps you forget. Log in to Reply seppuku 8/6/2014 - 12:23 am I was doing this regularly (taking ‘downers’ like benzos and barbs) for about six months when I had pretty much lost all hope and felt my eventual suicide was an inevitability. I literally just wanted to stop my brain from its constant self-hating and dark, circular thoughts, even though the drugs made me a clumsy, stupid zombie, at least I didn’t care anymore. Now I have found a bit of hope, it’s not a dramatic change (those are not always good in any case) but I simply am not drawn to the drugs as I have other stuff to do and am giving life another shot. I hope this may happen for you too Yukik. Log in to Reply alum 8/6/2014 - 12:27 am If you mind me asking, did you switch medication or just kind of power through it and come to terms with it? Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.