I don’t have a set date, but I finally have all the material needed to carry it out. I’d dare say that I’m actually excited about it; it’s like I’m planning for a vacation that I won’t come back from, nor would I want to. As of lately, I’ve thought more of the proper location for this event. Apparently, there are quite a number of choices, but I thought somewhere out in nature would be nice. Typically, in my previous experience, when I discuss suicide among those who are also contemplating it, it seems to be mostly born from a feeling of dread and doom, but for me, it means freedom, so I have a difficult time relating. At times, I think of their reason for wanting to resort to suicide as being an impulsive reaction to an immediate situation, but for me it is something planned and prepared. I’ve been planning my suicide for decades. I’m in my thirties now. If a freak accident doesn’t kill me first, I know I will at some point.
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I miss folks your age who killed themselves. Age doesn’t make it easier to accept. I respect your decision, just clearing up a few of the broken pieces of logic.
You going to leave somebody with instructions on where to find you? If not, your corpse could traumatise someone badly
I’ve thought of this as well & im in my 30s too. I was going to go into a beautiful rainforest, until I lost my car. Now ive decided just to bus it to a secluded area in the botanical gardens. Though I am ever aware of other peoples feelings, I am concerned of some poor person finding me, unawares. I don’t know what to do.
I will not being doing the deed out in the wilderness or a public place. However in my note I am specifically asking my ashes to be released to nature. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit excited myself. I feel I will be released of everything that burdens me – mental issues, poor chronic health and a skew of other things. I am slightly younger than you. Goodluck and godspeed to you. If all goes as planned, my journey ends tomorrow night. Think long and hard and do what you must.