I havent drank in a while because it usually ends up very badly for me but tonight, im really needing to just zone out. As I was pulling into my driveway coming back from the liquor store, I saw a wallet in the street. It had a decent amount of cash, some gift cards etc. I could have taken it all and just tossed the wallet in the garbage but, knowing it was the right thing to do, I took it over to the guys house and gave it to him. He was very grateful as most people would be but, unlike how I used to be, I really didnt feel good about it at all. It was just whatever for me. Im losing my ability to enjoy doing something good or fun. Maybe tonight, finally, the booze will give me the strength to finally just let go of everything.