Why wont you listen?

You don’t have to read if you’re not interested. I’m just ranting. I have a friend that I cherish and care for. She has been supporting me and helping me through. I have a lot of problems in life although I’m just 15, it’s a long story so maybe I’ll write more about it soon.  But recently I had a fight with her. I relied on her so much that I didn’t realize how much she was hurting. I tried to be nice, I tried to help. But it feels like she wouldn’t let me. She never tell me her problems and I hope she would. Every time I ask her if she’s okay, she would say fine. I was just telling her about how messed up my life is and I need her to listen, but she does not understand. She snapped at me. Telling me she felt bad that she can’t  help, but I didn’t want her to help. I need her to listen. And maybe care a little. I feel so useless all the time, I know I ain’t worth much but she’s the only friend that I ever trusted. I never asked anything from but for her to listen. Now I feel so bad for doing this to her. I feel so bad. All I want to do is hug her, and tell her I’ll never leave her but I’ll only get to see her at school and I’m shy because she’s one of the popular ones. Thanks for reading if you are. I’ll tell you more about me soon. I  appreciate your effort to click this and read it. it’s quite long.