A lot of people say that your Senior year is supposed to be supper easy as hell and the most fun that one can have, so I must be living the wrong life. So far, my life has been filled with pressure and stress and I am emotionally and physically tired.
What could I do to release some of the stress I’ve been living? What else is there besides cutting?
By now I’ve cut multiple lines into my skin, creating a twisted piece of artwork that is full of scratches and swelling cuts and the one problem I have is how I can’t tell anyone else what I just did. If I talked to my sister, she would tell me how she doesn’t have any time for my problems because she’s so happy thinking about her new boyfriend. If I talked to my father, he would send me back to the mental hospital that I haven’t seen in almost four years so I could be fixed and tell the judge how horrible of a mother my mom is. If I told my mother and step-dad, they would be exasperated, tired of my cutting and my problems and how it’s always THEM that has to fix me.
Thing is I have no one I can talk to, and that makes me feel like I have failed life so far. I don’t know what to do, and I just want to stop clinging to the edge of a cliff because I’m so tired of trying to be strong. I don’t want to die, but I feel like Atlas holding the weight of the world because, if he doesn’t, the world will be destroyed. In other terms, I would be destroying my world.