I’ve been depressed for almost eight years now, since my dad passed away. I have 18 days to plan exactly how to kill myself on the 15th of October, which is my dad’s death anniversary.
So far, my options are getting a tank of helium and using that, getting out of the country and buying ******** or simply throwing myself off a building.
Fuck, it’s also such a ***** planning your own funeral. I’m atheist and I need to leave clear instructions so no one tries to give me a religious procession.
Do people kill themselves because life is too overwhelming? Because, personally, I find it completely underwhelming. I don’t feel anything at all. And hence this decision. I’ve never been more sure about anything in my life.
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i think about those ways too but i was looking at statistics and stuff and whats scary is the large percentage of people that survive the attempt, and end up in worse shape then they were in before. Its sad i feel so bad for them and its irreversible you know? thats why i’m kind of glad i found this website and read about it how many things can go wrong on certain methods. you should google it and see what i mean. i’m kind of new to this site only a couple of days i’d like to learn as much as i can from the ones who have been around a while
your dad wouldnt want his death to be the cause of your death
As a dad who may have no choice but to inflict this on my daughter, I fully agree. I have no choice. I held out for 15 years for that very reason.
I would want my daughter to understand that if I could have gone on, I would have, but only for her. I would want her to understand that she was the main concern in my mind at all times. I would want her to try and understand my death is not a tragedy but a relief from unbearable suffering.
Parents die. There is never a convenient time for them to die.
If you are happy to die, so be it. But if life is simply underwhelming, then make a significant change. Taste it before you give it up.