i could be meeting somebody I’ve loved for years in about a month and a half 2 months. I’ve never been so terrified its all i can think about. but at the same time i can’t wait. I’ve stopped eating. i cant eat. its a mix of the two. idk i think despite the fear the nerves and anything else it’ll be the best night of my life possibly a good night to end it. idk. its something I’ve been thinking about the last few days. a nice way to go in the middle of the carnage of hundreds of sweating singing dancing people just connecting becoming one with each other the music in an almost primal fashion. that’s gotta be a good way to go. idk we’ll see closer to the day i guess.
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Maybe such a memorable occasion could be considered a beginning rather than an end…
more of an indication of how good your life can actually be instead of “it’ll never be any better than this.”
Don’t get me wrong, I am not known for my positive thinking. It just seems like something that might present hope as opposed to destruction.
– peace
maybe your right. thankyou x
Great advice, nozmoking.
E, having something to look forward to can be life changing – I hope this can be a turning point for you. Enjoy the anticipation 🙂
Me too 🙂 todays been kind of like emotional whiplash and for the first time in a long time I’ve been happy really proud of myself i really hope it lasts and maybe things can start to heal 🙂 thank you both x