I hope this helps. Love you all.
Really.
i’m stuck between the floor and the ceiling in my room, surrounded by the ghosts of my past. some say mean things, some are crying and some don’t speak at all. but i can see them. one is standing by the door, blocking my way out. he never speaks. one is lying on the floor dead drunk. one is standing behind me. he split his head so he could whisper to both of my ears.
one is crying in the corner. one is screaming. one is sleeping. one is tearing up my paintings. one is burning up my poems.
none intend to stop.
i go to […]
“From where you’re kneeling, this must seem like an 18 karat run of bad luck. Truth is, the game was rigged from the start.”
That quote sums up my life perfectly.
To understand why I’m doing this, I’ll need to explain a lot. Thank you if you read it all.
2012 I got out of an Abusive relationship. She beat the shit out of me over nothing. Jealous, possessive, constantly checking my phone. If I was a minute late getting home, I was cheating.
I moved into a house I’d been buying for Us. Not being able to afford the mortgage on my own, my mother offered […]
Well after another failed attempt on my life I’ve ended up back on a mental heath ward 25 miles from my own town. I cart do this again I cart stand it I cart do anythink right I cart even kill myself right. I’m lucky to be allowed my phone as the last time I was in hospital I was not. I’m Laying here thinking of away out but I don’t think it possible here and I don’t know how long I would have to stay here for.
I just cart take another day off how I am feeling it’s over 7 years now off the […]
I ‘ll just come by as a comrade, seriously though.. And Get the ticket tomorrow.. damn dude…
just wondering since they have that right to die law or whatever that passed. what if some people went like in a group to Oregon and found a doctor who could help? if not they have alot of forests i guess
I thought about it again. Taking all my pills at once. About cutting, Mum is slamming me again and my sister cant stop finding out my flaws. The kids at school just can’t stop after they saw me flirting with Mary. I want it all to end. I don’t want to let Her down but I feel hopeless. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. I feel like something isn’t right with me. Maybe I’m just paranoid though. My grades are slipping and I’m trying to keep them up. I have to get all A’s. Otherwise homelife is more like life in Hell. I […]
I’m in Southern California and I need move out the area. I can pay for rent. Please.
48 years old, virgin, never dated, tired of my life. I keep being told it’s up to me to change it, but since it never changes, clearly I don’t do anything to change it. Get depressed reading old posts of mine on internet from five, ten years ago, nothing changed in my life. I just don’t see the point in keeping on. Advice, go out more, exercise, join clubs, for what? I tried, nothing happened, okay got to keep trying, for what? More nothingness? I can’t stand myself, I don’t believe I can change my life for the […]
How do you get over someone? like … how do you get over a breakup or so? How long did it take you to move on? Are you a different person from who you were before the breakup and after your breakup and after you’re healed?
Battletoads, I need you
Come to the rescue
I need you, I need you
Joanne of Arc, ultimate
The gates of hands of our fate
Celestial of True Faith, is it you
To the place to never land
Let’s go, holy rehabilitate
Somehow I gotta’ get the fuck out now
Star to star here in America
The sacred water, the missing one
The story of the journey back to the East
Where the only path come from the heart
Galaxy, planet, beast at the gate
In the order then, I vanquish
Where do you go when you have so many problems that you dont fit in anywhere? No meaning to my life. No love. No one. Mercury poisoned and severely damaged. Multiple Chemical Sensitivity drives me to the wilds. Isolation even in crowds. Disabling anxiety, the slightest sound makes me jump inside. Completely disillusioned with society. Unwilling to support slavery and destruction of the earth and her creatures for my own survival… Not much left as i see it…. Not necessarily trying to die, but dont really see a way to live in this toxic wasteland. Soon to be homeless. […]