Personal rant of the night; letting off steam

I made a bunch of amazing friends my freshman year, i finally felt loved and excepted by these amazing people. I was surrounded by love, art, understanding, and passion. School ended i said my goodbyes and had to go home knowing i would not return to them in the fall. Summer went on and i was alone in a new city with only my brother and mom to keep me company; but that wasnt so terrible; one of my friends lives 40 mins away so id see her maybe once a week or a few days every other week; plus my best friend frmo school came to pick me up and i got to go to nc for a week and see her and one of my guy friends came up to see me for a weekend… but now school has started back up, the friend that lives 40 mins away has a gf now and between her gf, school, work and honestly the lack of desire to keep in touch or make the drive to see me we barely have the chance to hangout. My other friend who is back at school now is preoccupied with that and we are slowly staying in touch less and less; i dont see her coming to see me in the foreseeable future either… I am dancing with a ballet company however which keeps me busy but because i am shy and dont normally get along with “the ballet type of girls” I havent made any friends there. So I have no one to hangout with or laugh with or talk to and its got me really down. My normal schedule for a the week is: wake up sit around and watch tv alone until I have to go to dance, then i come back home where i watch tv with my mom, who i love to death, then when she goes to sleep i stay in my room alone. Then on weekends when i have no dance and all i want to do is have some fun or go out and let loose a little I just sit at home by myself because i have no one to go out with…I get no texts from anyone all day and no invites to hangout with anyone. My mom is telling me this wont last and to just hang on and i will make friends and have my time to have fun but i dont see that in the foreseeable future unless somehow i end up meeting some new people… I really do hate being alone and its weird from going from having lots of great friends and being able to go out and have fun to not having anyone and literally being trapped in my house. PLus being at home is stressful itself, always having my brother arguing and yelling about how everything is my fault and how our family is “shit” and  i;m the cause of everything bad that has happened to him and to our family. constant bickering, constant yelling, which is not good for the soul nor for my mom and my physical or emotional health, or even good for his health. Blehhh for anyone who read this; it feels so good to be able to vent even if it is to my own computer and you guys on sp lol. hopefully yal are having a good night. SENDING MY LOVE AS ALWAYS <3