I cannot believe it but I’m at the point where I’m just willing to accept my death. if it comes tomorrow, day after, in the next 5 years even better!Some people say it gets better. for me it never has and now that i’m tired of hoping and trying to work so it does. I am willing to accept that death will be better than this existence. i dont know about afterlife, rebirth and shit. what happens then is another chapter but for now.. Death! i welcome you!
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I know the feeling, I go to sleep most nights and hope I wont wake up. Its not a happy feeling.
On the bright side though (if there is one) – if you dont fear death, that opens the door to some really exciting activities; motorbike racing, base jumping, swimming with sharks etc.
aah, what a glorious way to look at it The Mad Hatter. Maybe sky diving isnt the best for everyone who fail at it the first time.
Well thanks 🙂 But even if you do fail – by your own admission you’d welcome it! There are a number of other pros too since its not technically suicide. If you’re religious and have lived a good life, you’ll still go to heaven. If you have loved ones, life insurance will pay out – plus they’ll at least be comforted that you went out with a bang doing something you really wanted to do..
Doubt that I am going to heaven nor do I have life insurance. Im just 22. The only upside is that i will finally stop disappointing my loved ones. we all move on. so will they.
I feel the same way, I have for years, taking one day at a time for now not much I can do. I’m as tired and exhausted as you. It’s a fate worse than death living without joy hope or companionship. If you don’t mind me asking what brought you to feel the way you do? As to your loved one moving on, they will move on but a part of them will die inside.
I know this from experience, I lost my dad from suicide my brother from a heroin overdose, my grandmother, and both grand parents. Though I didn’t know my grandparents I deeply loved the other family members dearly. They will also have nightmares about it for the rest of their lives. I had the luck of seeing my dad’s body after he pulled the trigger on a 12 gauge. As much as I want to die I hate seeing others off themselves. You are 22 a lot of good things can still happen to you, stick around for awhile it’s not hopeless.
Sorry my grand fathers, I loved my grandmother deeply, if there is a heaven or an afterlife she is sitting with god playing a game of 500 rummy. You might think your loved ones won’t miss you, but trust me they will. I cant judge though I’m in the same place. Do you have any good friends you can talk to? If not many on this website will listen, there are a lot of good people on this site going through a lot of shit we can at least understand and relate.