And its days like this where I feel completely alone & unwanted. Theyre all upstairs laughing & cheering each other over a game on their ipads.
I just went up to go to the toilet & he looked up & his face told me to fuck off. Quite literally.
I had so many dreams & aspirations… I just wish my body hadnt betrayed me.
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“I had so many dreams & aspirations… I just wish my body hadnt betrayed me.” I totally hear you on that.
Your body hasn’t betrayed you, your mind has. We need to get you thinking positive!
“…and when you’re at your weakest, when that little voice in your head tells you to tap out and call it a day — PUSH ONWARD! Make the body a slave to your mind, and your mind an instrument of precision!”
I used to think my body betrayed me as well, until I realised it was my mind that tricked me into thinking I was made of steel. Yep…now I am partly steel but it sure as hell didn’t get me anywhere! So…take caution when pursuing an adventure, and never compromise yourself when any type of injury is concerned.
Its not my mind that has tricked my body. It is so difficult to walk, especially upstairs. There are little kids here that I would love to be chasing & throwing in the air, but I can’t. I am also so tired all the time. It cannot be right to sleep for 11 – 12 hours & yet 2 hrs later want to fall asleep again. What is the point of living when all I can do is sleep & be in pain?…
Only those who are going through incredible amount of pain and suffering knows exactly how it feels like. The rest of the world can have a thousand sermons at their disposal but it doesn’t help one bit. I can relate with your suffering very much, since I’ve faced similar things in life as well. What I can say, my heart just goes out to you and I sincerely hope you’d find some way that would free yourself from this endless pain. In the meantime, if you know anyone who have a special place in your heart, then share your pain with that person, it really would help and don’t give a shit about the ones who treats you like a piece of dirt!