I hate doing this

Something bad happened again and i thought i was dealing okay with it but i just realized i havent eaten in a little over a week, and only small portions of junk food if i have, and only gotten three hours of sleep. But i cant manage to give a shit, part of me’s hoping no one will notice and let me die this time. Not sure if its really worth caring about either way, it would be nice to stop feeling so shitty and worthless