I have a good life most would say,a family who cares about me, friends, we’re not rich but we have a good life…and yet, everyday when I go out to live the same routine over and over again, I wish that something bad happens to me, a car accident, a robbery going wrong, being struck by thunder…I don’t know, I don’t want to live anymore, I just…can’t, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, why I feel so unhappy when everyone says that I should be fine, and at the same time I’m too coward to take out my own life, I keep thinking about the people I care, they are enough to prevent me from taking out my own life, but at the same time they’re not enough to make me want to live, I’m trying to push then back, to make then give up on me, I keep thinking that if something “natural” happens to me, they will suffer less, and I will be free.
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Well if you dont know what your problem is that isnt an issue. Sounds like you are bored or is there something lacking in your life. Dig deep and let me know
I’ve been in your shoes… hoping that something “natural” happens so I can stop the Google searches, prayers for death, etc. It can be frustrating when you don’t know what causes you to feel down… and even more frustrating when others don’t understand. Do you keep a mood journal? I kept one for a little while… making notes about what was happening and how I felt. It helped me narrow things down a bit. Try not to drive people away… Although you may not realize it now, that can make things tougher down the road. I speak from experience.