I finally got my case pushed through to meeting someone. After waiting 40 minutes in the foyer he finally came out to meet me. Thanks for the promptness. Just proves how important I am to these people.
With the last 20 minutes of my session remaining the guy asked me all the same boring shit he should have got in the fax of my assessment. Oh wait. They didn’t fucking send it to him.
So now here we are, more than halfway through and with no past history on the table. What a great start. I was so mad at this point that I could barely answer his questions. He’s also under the assumption that Paxil is a perfectly fine drug to get off of; “only a month or so of tapering down and you’re good to go.” Yeah. Right. Yeah FUCKING right.
Then he seemed surprised when I knew what the hell I was talking about when it came to shit like DBT and mindfullness. Do these people think that someone diagnosed with something won’t look into help for it AT ALL?!?
I’m so done. I cant believe I waited weeks and months for that. I’m just going to go slice up my arms now to relieve some of the tension, if not die right then and there.
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Thats the way the health systems work -unreliable- but nothing compares to when you are matched with a counselor who clicks with you and progress is made. I rely on my therapist for so much. I feel ya on the cutting part, I can’t tell you to not do it because I do it too. Don’t throw in the towel just yet – good luck to you.
My providers usually run late, too. Several weeks ago, my provider actually forgot I was waiting. Forty-five minutes later, the office staff went and got her. A lot of it is because caseloads are so high and, after the previous client leaves, they have to make some notes in whatever system they use to document the previous conversation. It’s not uncommon and it’s not personal to you.
Typically, my provider looks at my most recent records before calling me in. It helps keep consistency among providers so that Provider A doesn’t do something different from Provider B. As for the medication knowledge, I’d be curious as to what his credentials were. That would explain the level of knowledge he displayed.
Here in the States, we’re often entitled to a second opinion by another provider. That provider would meet with you and provide his/her insights. Also, keep in mind that sometimes providers and patients just dont connect. It happens… and sometimes you have to request a new provider. I speak from experience on that. Different providers have different styles and it might take working with a few styles to find the right one. In the end, when things click, it will be worth it.
Don’t let today lose your faith. There is plenty of time to get things on the right track.
i’ve found that no one paves to wide a breadth for the intellectual suicide case…..in my personal expeirience sometimes seeking help has put me in an even more dismal state…..it takes so much to finally ask for help, and when its not forthright, it can be really fucking disheartening, i know…..
oh and fuck a bunch of paxil…..i’ve found it to make people crazier…especially females….bitches be crazy, right?? i hated it, it made my insomnia worse…i’m on celexa, i prefer it much more….idk how long you’ve been on it, but 6 months is usu the norm i thought, 3 months of pure tapering combined with three months of tapering and transitioning……might wanna mention that to fuck-tard
how are you????????