When that one feeling comes back, where you feel like your too worthless to be cared about but there has to be someone out there that can help cant there and there must be hope somewhere i just cant help but think that i am some useless amd worthless hore that needs to be killed or should of done suicide when i had the chance just sitting in my room crying and replaying in my head how shit my life has been no one round no one to look after me. How am i supposed to carry on when i feel like shit in the deep dark hole of depression……. Someone please help me
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Hi.
I appreciate that you found the courage to edit this post. I’d care to learn more about you and your story, too, if it doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable.
I don’t know how old you are, but you seem very insecure and as if you were needing some place to belong to. I hope that in a way, this site can give you what you’re looking for, at least.
You’re being really hard on yourself. You might even think that you don’t deserve any better, anyway, but then you’re wrong. It’s usually the people “deserving” it the least who attract depression, either way. I don’t know what (or who) makes you think you’re being worthless, but I really wish you some people who can convince you of (and make you feel) the opposite.
I guess when people look at you, they don’t know how to help, so they try to avoid the confrontation (with the own helplessness. It can be really demanding to cope with that). But that doesn’t make you matter any less. People do care; you’re going to see that if you take a closer look.
I wish you all the best, honestly.
Ending it this way isn’t a solution.
Sincerely,
-R.
I wish I could had have met someone like you during my own struggle but my time is almost up. You’re not useless, you’re beautiful but people don’t understand you. One day you’ll find someone who makes all the suffering worthwhile, but until then all the love you need is inside.
Remembrance wrote, “It’s usually the people “deserving” it the least who attract depression…” Sadly, this is often true. Depression is something that can affect anyone and everyone. It’s not personal… It’s the way it works. When you feel down, remember that you are NOT worthless… You deserve everything that society has. This site can be really helpful in sharing your thoughts and feelings. Many of us know what you’re going through because we’re experiencing it ourselves. You’re definitely not alone. Please try to remember that.