Im a Monster

Its been approximately a year since I’ve posted .In that time I’ve had alot of time to think and reflect.I’ve discovered alot about myself.as all of.you dont know I despise myself.I hate myself.I look in the mirror everyday and hate what I see.im only ever good for hurting other people.thinking back to when everything first began for me I already knew that all thats happened to me up until now was gonna happen.you see everyone follows their own paths in life.some not always good.you decide what path,journey,what road you will walk.me?I chose this path knowing that I’d end up alone.I knew that I’d come to hate myself for the things I’ve done.I knew it all….at the beggining of this road I knew that I’d have to do some cruel things to other people.I trained myself to show no mercy,no sympathy,no interest,no emotion whatsoever in preparation for this.but still I continued on.and I still do.if you knew all there was to know about me you’d think im a monster too.if you meet me in real life you’ll see that I tell the truth all the time sometimes too my own disadvantage,but actually im the biggest liar you’ll ever meet.and with all this on my mind you might be wondering why I wrote this and all my other posts.im only writing my stories here because while it may be slim I hope somebody.will remember me someday and maybe I wont dissapear from existence after all.