to be honest

to be honest… I wish I wasn’t sick anymore cause no one gets it. I wish I could have some one like the “sick” girls in my books the girls that are just like me they get rescued y cant I y cant I have some one like tate someone to love me like he loves violet… I have a boyfriend sure but its like he just doesn’t care he said it was “you and me together for always” but he doesn’t love me and I don’t love him.. we both want the same things we like the same things but im not in love with him.. I have my tate but he gave up on me.. he gave up on me.. and he told me so. he stopped loving me. all I want is for him to be back with me. he was helping me he was changing me fore the better. when he left it broke me.. I have no one. I have nothing. I am nothing. I just want to have my one person that wont leave me… I want to die loved