About a year ago I was had a casual relationship with the best person I have ever met and probably the only person I have loved in my 22 years. One night we hung out and got really drunk and I did a couple of lines of cocaine and smoked some pot and we ended up having sex not for the first time. I got way to exploratory and tried anal with her she said it hurts and then later stop but I didn’t because I am a **** human being. She forgave me and was more angry after I cut myself out of her life because I believe I am a horrible person and would only hurt her more. I am at a fork in the road essentially I can not forgive myself and will always live debating whether or not I should paint the wall with my brains. I should do it right? I mention the drugs only because I believe they bring out the true you so it is no excuse.
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i hate anal personally…
hey, may as well man
What you did is not so bad that it has to be the end of the world for you.
I have done things I am not proud of. But you have to learn to orgive yourself.
God forives people when they ask or forgiveness
So ask for orgiveness then forgive yourself and move forward.
try to stay off the drugs they will only complicate matters
I don’t know why you think you’re a horrible person. You are very young. There are plenty of girls who enjoy experimentation. Stick around and find one and be amazed that sex can be whatever you like with someone who feels the same way. Move on. There’s nothing wrong with you.
Oh, and don’t do drugs. Drugs are bad, m’kay?
I envy your capacity for love. That you would break off the relationship with your love and even consider offing your self for shame. That’s huge. Even so, by your words, it appears she’s over the incident. I wouldn’t lose the friendship you still have and I’d really think hard about how much I’d hurt the one I love by hurting myself. You have a loving heart and should live on and share.
Oh…and yeah, anal is no big deal. Wait for the girl to ask for it. The vagina is awesome.
About drugs bringing out the ‘real’ you. Bullshit. They certainly lower inhibitions but you are definitely not yourself.
***** is where its at. its made for a dick. the dirt road not so much. u cud argue any hole is made for a dick but i mean… up to u give it a go
Personally, I’d rather have some pineapple.
pineapple in the *****?
mmm, pineapple….
too much to ask for both? I dont think so.
Don’t pineapples have spikey bits? Sounds somewhat ouchy.
just the flseshy insides joey. u know the deal. yellow and pink go together quite well in the color wheel i believe. its fashionable thats how we know its right
They’re also epiphytes that procreate like a fungus and grow on the sides of trees. But don’t judge. They’re delicious.
Only the suicidal pineapples, in a tropical depression.