I’ve felt empty since my teenage years. And now I’m 24. I never felt disapointed in me, even though I’ve never been happy with myself. More like always on other people. I never have spoken out loud about these things. Vice versa I pretend to be happiest person on this earth. Always cheering people to chase their dreams, whatnot. I never felt that there would be someone that would fully understand me enough. I get always the attention I don’t enjoy to get but don’t show it. Every single night I cry myself to sleep and wake up with a such a heartache. I feel like it is my time to go, and I really pray to God that there would be reason not to let all this go. I don’t know what to do anymore, I’m just sick of everything. I feel empty, but not numb frankly. If I would feel numb, it would be easy to let go way or another. Help.
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And the funny thing is, I don’t even know if I believe in God.
I feel you, empty when I was a teen, and struggling to deal with my mid 20s. I feel you completely. What i’m trying to do is revert to what I enjoyed doing when I was younger. I don’t remember feeling depressed when I was a kid, so I figured I should take up some of those activities I did around that age. Sooo, now I draw. For me, it’s been working a bit to brighten my day.