So, I know many of us were not able to complete uni/college and some of us are busy in the middle of doing so. Well, I am from a different end of the spectrum and am in a position I never thought any one could be in…I finished my bachelors, in my final year I had a very severe mental break down yet still managed to pass (albeit at the bear minimum).
So whats the problem, you may be wondering? Well, you see…I don’t remember anything from my degree. I literally (I’m not making this up) know nothing. Might as well not have done it. Yep a 1st year knows more than I do.
I have my family constantly pressuring me to find a job but how the hell can I get a job, when I know nothing? All those years, completely wasted. I don’t know what the frack is up with me. What a joke, I have never heard of anyone who has had this problem, when spending years getting their bloody degree!
As if my life couldn’t get any more shameful. I wish I killed myself back when I tried it, now I don’t have the motivation to try it again, but I feel compelled to do so. I can’t deal with this, I can’t tell my family, they already think of me as shit, I don’t have any friends so no help there either.
I just don’t know what else to do…
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Ah, I have a mate who experiences the same and she’s pretty depressed. She’s a beautician, completed so many studies. But now she vaguely remembers it. Do you think it is something wrong with your memory?
Actually it happens to many people, i think engineers suffer from it the most (me and several class mates went through it). If you still care about it you could always study the basics as a reminder and that should be enough to get you through the first months of your first job, i know it sucks but it is more common than you think.
this is wild. I lost a big chunk of my memory and my intellect last year. I know what it’s like to feel a clear contrast from who you were to who you are now. It’s a blow no doubt. I say, I say at least you have the degree and the piece of paper to show for all those years of blood sweat and tears. Good for you. When you get a job — because its inevitable you will — you’ll relearn as you go along. It’ll be ok.