I can’t resist the temptation.
When I see the blood come out from where I cut, I seem to become lost in a trance. I become fascinated. It’s inciting. I can’t resist the temptation to draw more blood. It’s as if as the blood represents all my negative emotions, and is it pours out, my negative emotions are slowly cleansed. The temptation is too great. It makes me happy. The emotion that I thought I’d lost. Call me crazy, but I love it.
Also I don’t really want anyone to tell me not to cut, to go distract myself, go talk to someone. I have done all that, and if I cut, it’s not like anyone telling me to stop will make me stop. Telling me that just makes me feel that much worse for having done it. As if I’ve committed a grave sin.
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That seems familiar. I remember years ago going to the far end of the high school where nobody was and would just sit and look at the pine trees in the distance. I knew what I was going to do, but I always felt like I was someplace far away in the trees and not on the steps of the school. I would always look at the blood afterwards and thought it looked beautiful in a way, but it would slowly darken as it dried. I never enjoyed it as you do, but it was comforting to know I was still alive even at the times I did not feel as such.
I had resisted doing it again for so long…
It is comforting to know you’re still alive. Which is ironic because the blood that seeps out is what is keeping you alive.
You have nothing to be ashamed of. I admire it. What a bad mofo. You’re on another level of being a savage. Bleed it out!!
Is it bad that your comment made me laugh? lol
no, i’m happy i put a smile on your face. i’m gonna do charcoal burning. poison myself. you?
Won’t that cause a lot of brain damage if you don’t succeed?
As for me, I don’t know yet. I was thinking of bleeding it out, probably won’t work, but hey I get to see my blood. And I don’t really care if it hurts that much anyways.
you a vap thing? I’m NOT SURE WHAT TO SAY BUT cutting just hurting you
Um do you mean vamp not vap? Maybe if I drank my own blood or found a victim who I could drink from. Well technically, vamps don’t drink they’re own blood but whatever. But clearly I never said anything about any of this, did I? So no.
And yes I’m smart enough to know that cutting is hurting me. That’s the point.
get it your hurting but stop cutting bullshit try to talk to so body about how you feel
Oh I’m sorry that you think cutting is bullshit. And I do talk to people about how I feel, I even have a therapist.
It may be stupid to you, you may not understand it, but cutting helps me. Even though I know deep inside I shouldn’t do it, IT HELPS ME. I feel better. It’s not the best habit, but I hate when people try to tell me it’s bad for you and that it’s dumb. Like I already don’t know that.
Ok good luck with it
If its a habit your addicted
Meh, I already know that. Oh well. I’ve been able to stop before, I just don’t feel like it right now.