…made it to work today. It was hard but I tried to call on god, the universe and all the powers that be to get me here. I made it. Can’t focus but I’m here. trying to focus. Trying to get on the right track but I can’t do anything except think about my inner sadness.
I want to break free (just like Freddy mercury) but it’s hard. I break free a bit and then get some things done but then I’m back inside like a boomerang. Today is particularly bad.
My boo gets home tomorrow. maybe she’ll even want to see me. She makes me smile and loves me in her own way but none of that is enough to pull me out. Tears keep hiding behind my eyes. Okay I asked my supervisor for a rigid deadline for a thing. Hopefully the stress will pull me out of this. work work work.