Well I had some medical issues that had been occurring over the past two weeks. I noticed some symptoms and panicked and got a full blood std test last friday. I was flipping out in so much pain and couldn’t wait till tuesday for the blood results. So I saw a Doctor on Monday and was given a clinical diagnoses and told I had genital herpes. I was devastated and cried but I accepted it, I was going to wait for my blood test to confirm what I had already been told before I spoke to the person I was currently seeing. I get my blood results and it was a miracle truly I tested negative for everything including genital herpes the test done was IGG and is the most accurate. So after this I made an appointment to see my old doctor to get a second/third opinion. After listening to the symptoms I had been having and then doing an examination of my rash I was told that I had originally been misdiagnosed. Instead I was told that I have the shingles virus. The nerve pain has been the worst and these past two weeks feel like a lifetime. I don’t have health insurance so the cost of my meds and all the tests and medical visits drained me financially. Anyways the medicine was a god send it helped soooo much. However yesterday I left my pill bottle on the counter by the kitchen and somehow it has disappeared. I searched every where in all the drawers, cabinets, moved furniture, checked clothes, looked in every room, checked my car, the trash and nothing. So now I’m stuck in pain and my $100 pills that I didn’t even have for 24 hrs just vanished. It is so aggravating I got so angry that I ended up self harming i punched a few things and cut and bruised up my arm and banged my head so hard i split it open a little. The nerve pain has been so bad it hurts to wear clothes its one of the worst pains I have been in. And I’ve really truly been trying to be positive but now idk if I can because I seriously think someone took the pills because they can just have vanished and not be anywhere in the house. The pain truly sucks I hate the cycle of bad and good, can I please for once get more good than bad, more positive than negative PLEASE?!
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If somebody in your home stole your meds, that is really horrible. I would firmly insist that whoever “borrowed” them promptly return them. There are times to joke and there are times not to joke. This isn’t that time. You need your meds. I hope you feel better.
Most likely just misplaced.. when we get anxiety, stressed or depressed we forget where we put things.. or forget we even put them somewhere lol they will show up somewhere..
Sorry to hear about the lost pills. They have to be somewhere. Do something else for a while, sleep for the night, and perhaps you’ll stumble upon them later. I mainly wanted to say though, to make sure to take time to be grateful for the good news you got. I know the constant rollercoaster of things going good and then bad can be frustrating, but I felt such a sense of relief reading this post from you. Because when reading your previous one, I empathized and felt such a sense of dread about getting a diagnosis that was going to affect your dating life, and larger parts of your life, forever. Especially knowing that you had been so careful and had a small number of partners, you certainly didn’t deserve to have to live with something like that for the rest of your life. So, it’s pretty DAMN GOOD NEWS that you received a different diagnosis and don’t have to be worried about what you originally thought it was. Sometimes all we can do is try to be grateful for the small amount of things that do end up going right. I’m extremely happy for you that the initial diagnosis was wrong. Try not to let something like the frustration of these lost pills, and the temporary (though excruciating) pain of this condition that will eventually clear up, distract from the fact it’s a large improvement from just a few days ago when you thought you had a permanent illness. It’s worth celebrating!
As usual, the comment I posted is in moderation. You can probably read it if you go to your control panel Alina and approve it, unless that’s something mods have to do. But basically I said it’s really great news that your initial diagnosis was wrong!