A song i wrote about a small part of my life

I’ll take you back to a place unseen,
Back when I was just wee lil teen,
I know this might seem hard to believe in,
But there’s a side of me ya all ain’t seein’,
Dads never home, nether is my mother
never sees nether ever since they split
growing up in a world so alone and so fragile
Way too many friends, only talked to a few of them,
The rest don’t even want anything to him,
He found a girl when he was just fourteen,
who would have thought it be all a bad dream,
Was going good dating for a solid two years,
Soon to find wiping away a face full of tears,
wishin’ she wouldn’t have gone through with it
cheating once is just bearable how could you be doin’ it
but 3 times is going past the boundary’s
he wishes he could be buying some commodity’s
but instead he’d just be cutting down into major artery’s
No one knows what he’s been going through
always asking are you okay and I’m always here for you
but that ain’t good enough not after this it has been rough
Feels just like he’s never gonna be good enough
For anyone cause for one he’s just not tall enough
fit enough and not even cool enough,
I feel lonely every single day
of my life but I’m ashamed to admit that
to all the people who love me,
He falls into deep depression not knowing
who to trust and what fucks are been given’
he’s sees doctors, and professionals
says he hears voices and sees illusions
stays up all night in a fragile state of confusion
cant tell the difference between
because life just keeps beatin’ him
hearin people in his home all the time
has a constant fear of a murder on his on his behind
never sleeps to the dread that the strange illusions
might become more than just simple delusions
lost his friends, lost his social life, his family members hated him
waking up haunted, With voices all in his head
Can’t eat, Can’t slept, Can’t even speak
sitting here wishing reality wasn’t oblique
I’m sorry it has come to this
I wish I didn’t fall into life’s abyss
Full of trouble, man I feel I’m surrounded
I’m standing on this bridge about to no longer be grounded
just been searching for a reason to live
but all I can find is more reasons to dive
wondering who would notice I’m gone
Nobody knows it but today I won’t go unnoticed
I can’t forget, Can’t forgive
Today the screaming Is over
I’m writing this to you to say goodbye
and to tell you that I’m leaving
But don’t hold your breath ’cause
I ain’t never coming back.