Yup. Totally fucked up since the fucking day I was born. So this past 2 years have been so so messed up, wait that’s not the right word. HAVE BEEN SO FUCKED UP!! Last monday was my 3rd time I tried to commit suicide, didn’t work as you can see, so I’ve been at this shitty hospital all this week and a couple hours before doctors told me I have cancer (leukemia). Not the best news I wanted but ammm I can’t do anything about it, because I did this all bymyself so right now I;m lost, and please don’t. Don’t tell me everything is going to be alright because I know that it’s not going to happen. I don’t know where the fuck my mom is, my dad left us and my grandma is the most shittiest person I’ve ever met besides my friends. I don’t know if the hospital is going to kick me out of here because I don’t have enough money to pay the medinsurance and my grandma doesn’t want me with her so YES I’M SO FUCKED UP AND I’M GOING TO DIE.