It seems like if people aren’t beheading you for being an infidel, you’re being judged for your honesty. I really don’t understand how doctors and other intelligent people can be happy, unless they manage to block out the world somehow. I’ve observed several stories about intelligent people committing suicide, being murdered, or shamefully humiliated by society. I thought that I could be happy by being mean, but I’m just not naturally an asshole like so many others. I feel bad when I make morbid jokes based off of reality. When I talked to my therapist, I often told him what was bothering me, and he never said anything. Are my feelings justified? If so, then why do people think I need help when I mention suicide? Why do people have to blast their heads off with shotguns and leave scattered brain matter for people to clean up? Why can’t people just go out and buy suicide pills, or die in a dignified and less horrendous manner? I don’t fucking understand this world.
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Yes maybe and all so flip thing feel like shit too
Got good friend’s and surround your self with people who are not pricks maybe
The world makes perfect sense: survival of the fittest. If you aren’t the smartest guy and don’t have morals you just take out the competition. In order to survive you don’t mind attention to your surroundings if everything is screwed up. Not that i like it but it seems to be the rule for lots of people.
At times people forget that human beings have not been “civilized” for that long.
Haha, dont mistake doctors for smart people. They are skilled in their particular discipline, but not necessarily intelligent in a philosophical sense. That doesnt mean all doctors are dumb, there are probably more intelligent people among doctors than there are intelligent people among the whole population, but still. The intelligence you apparently are referring to is not earned through university studies, especially nowadays.
As others said, the “smart” people you talk about are not always, they are just skilled. Some are intelligent, others less so. At the end of the day once can find happiness in little things, or not, it’s really a matter of perspective.
If you were truly intelligent to look around you’d also know that the world as a whole is in one of the most peaceful times it’s ever had. The main difference is we’re all instantly aware of every fault and foible that goes on everywhere… and the news SO loves to show us at our worst, it grabs your attention. Nice people being nice to each other doesn’t make the news often unless it’s something spectacular.
The guy that pulled over to help someone change their tire will never make the news.
The guy that pulled over to rape a girl stranded on the side of the road will.
Not all humans are evil. That said, not all humans are nice, either. Be aware.
I’m sorry you’re hurting and feeling death is an option. 🙁 I know that life can be cruel and ruthless. I wish I could give you a hug. I wish I had the words to make your pain go away. I wish you could see how important you are.
You have pain that is making your feel this way. I know the world is sad place and we can’t change most of it. But we can change small but important things.
Like right now, communicating to you my heart goes out to you. You are not alone. There are positive things in the world if we look- five other people have let you know they care.
I care too. Please take care of you!
you appear to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, possessing too much empathy in an time that suffers from a lack of it. tough burden to bear, no doubt.
look at it this way… in order to fit in with society you must ease up on kindness… that is messed up! You are a rare gem!! Do not change!!! If anything, get a new therapist, one that will actually engage in conversation and shows a vested interest in you.
Sadly, we are so desensitized by violence that blowing ones head off seems like a plan, for the guys anyways, its rare for a female to choose that route- we prefer a more graceful exit… like the ever allusive suicide pills… You can thank the gov’t for making that harder to come by than uranium- it took me a year to get what i needed 5 years ago, and they are all but a myth here in the states and even Mexico now…
i have always compared ‘normal’ people, to horses wearing blinders, – only looking forward- can you imagine? Not for me! I want to see everything, know everything, just not necessarily feel everything- therein lies the problem- how to remain aware without the repercussion of the myriad of feelings that are induced by being aware—
you may want to keep suicidal idealization to this site- that is the type of thing only likeminded people can handle- otherwise, be prepared for a possible Baker Act (if you are in the US anyways) – not fun indeed