My therapist says he thinks I am addicted to torturing myself… What does that even mean??? I don’t even know what that is supposed to mean or how it is supposed to make me feel, but it makes me feel like a loser whiny 8!tch. I didn’t initially want to get into my recent flashbacks because I felt so stupid for still having flashbacks 15 years after the $h!t was over. I just want to know if any of you understand what he means? Maybe I am just a stupid fat c*nt anyhow. I feel like such a loser.