26 years working for the same company…boss half my age, 21 year old daughter sick in a wheelchair all her life, me and wife are 24/7 caregivers. I dont want to anymore. nothing is fun nothing is worthit. Cant even get disab insurance to believe Im not well so i wasted 3 weeks off no pay and will probably be stuck going back to work in a few days. fuck it. 26 ativan in a bottle in the bathroom. Only reserve i have is that its not enough. I dont want to end up on a machine. Never though I was a bad person but all this SHIT in life has me thinking otherwise.
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Life is just unfair to most people. Nicest people seem to have worst situations “given” to them as well, so don’t think you are a bad person and that bad things happen to you because you’re bad.
If anything you are an amazing father and husband by working 26 years on something that gives you no joy and you taking care of a sick daughter… many guys would have walked away. All the advice i can give is that maybe you should try doing something for yourself that gives you some sort of happiness (even if its a small hobby or something like that, it might help), maybe your wife could benefit from doing the same.
As for the ativans… most likely you’d sleep for several days and in the worst of cases you’d get some mild liver damage (which would happen with almost any amount of sleeping/anxiety pills nowadays, OD rarely works)… so i’d advice against it.
It just feels like this is the best route my family would get ins money and hopefully a good atty nand sue the std ins company who refuses to take my problem seriously. Just the fact that it’d be on their shoulders is enough to makeme want to go forward with it.