It all comes full circle. Nothing really left. I am 47 have not felt this way in awhile. Lost all that was good. I am not weak. But just cant stand the thought about what is left. Things dont really change. I was not a drinker. But all i want to do is get fucked up on alcohol, pills, weed. I need relief. I have good friends play in a band, but am alone always alone.
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I’m not being playful when I say get a cat or a dog. I would be so lonely without my pets. Humans do let you down. They cannot fill that part of your soul or heart that feels empty, at least not for long. Hang in there. Keep on truckin’. I totally understand wanting a ‘break’ from it all, to zone out. Go ahead, do a bit of anesthesia, but don’t stay there for too long please. And don’t drive in a state of altered mind. You would feel horrible later if you drove and either killed or injured someone else.
Once you are more stable in life again, occasionally reach out to help someone else. That is a true balm for the soul.
Have a cat very glad of that. Pretty respondsible so i wont get fucked up and drive. Just wish it was over. I wont kill myself or anything. At least not yet. Have good friends.
One addition: If you cannot take care of a pet, please don’t get one. Dogs require a lot of time. They have to poop and pee outside, and be walked. Cat’s are much easier to care for, use a litter box, and just as loving once you bond. And you must be able to afford food and medical care for them.
My cat is well taken care of, spoiled rotten
chriswatt666,
I’m older than you, I have 3 cats, a girl friend that’s, half my age, and I’m still all alone, I think I like it that way 🙂
Good to hear you have some purring company who is well loved and spoiled. One of mine is sitting on my lap purring as I type. I’ve learned to like living as the only human in my home. I spoil myself, as well as my pets. But then I’m older than both of you. It’s harder when you’re young.
Hi there – I’m sorry for the things that are going on in your life- seems like we should be on cruise control by the time we reach our mid-forties, why is it that loneliness reappears?
It can take most of a lifetime to find a safe haven, and, even then, to find a purpose.