Here lately it seems like everything is going wrong. I’m having to fork out hundreds of dollars I don’t have on shit that shouldn’t be breaking. Appliances, computers, car, etc. everybody keeps fucking telling me “God only gives you what you can handle.” Well ya know what? Fuck that shit. I can’t handle being so damn broke I’m now thousands in debt. I can’t handle wondering if I’m gonna have enough left after fucking bills to feed my child. I can’t fucking handle people telling me this shit. I can’t fucking handle people telling me to be grateful. Fuck. I am grateful for the things I have earned by busting my ass like the house I bought to raise my child in. I’m am grateful for the shit ass job I have that underpays me, undervalues my talent, and fucking takes advantage of me. I am grateful for my daughter and my fiancée. I am grateful that I’m finally back in college. But why the fuck should I be grateful for all this shit going wrong at once? Why should I be grateful for having to fork out over $4,000 in a month between oil, tires, furniture, and appliances?!? Why the fuck should I be grateful that I have been diagnosed with carpel tunnel in both my wrists and will probably have to have surgery??? Why the fuck should I be grateful for the universe taking a big ol’ shit right on all the good that was finally happening for me and fucking it all up?!? Why the fuck should I be grateful that this shit keeps going wrong? Fuck that. I can’t handle it. How fucking much can you handle?
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Not any more then I’m trying to handle… Life is just handing out all kinds of bullshit in all directions..
Lost my house 6 months ago and hubby still hasn’t found a decent job… On top of having to stay with the in-law, even more people have moved in. Bullshit talkers who never like to take the blame for anything bad in their life. It’s everyone else’s fault… It’s a very fucked up situation and it pushing me to the end….
Maybe this wave of bad luck you’ve encountered will wash over eventually. I know it’s super hard to be grateful when life is just falling apart all around you. It’s hard when nothing is going well, and you feel as though just one more bad thing and you’re just going to breakdown..
I wish the best and that hopefully these won’t last much longer. I’ve been going through some bumpy shit for a year now and I feel like it’s never going to get any better for me BUT by some magical being I’m still here fighting and I know you can too…
God Bless You and your Family…
I can’t stand people who bring god into the conversation, that line is just an excuse for them to not involve themselves. “God gave us free will” yep, I can believe that, you have the free will to help or destroy me, congrats for proving which side you’re on, nowplease step aside and out of my life, and take your lazy ass god with you. My suggestion, anyone else that gives you that line about god this, god that, ask them when was the last time thier god actually helped them and not another human being.
Thanks pumpkinlover, I sincerely hope things get better for you too. I think the universe is just on a fuck us all kick lately.
Catt, I totally get what your saying and I used to claim to be Christian, and then Atheist, but idk what religion I am because honestly I don’t care that much. I’ve tried to be religious but it doesn’t work.