what now

Sounds pretty tough. You’ve made it this far and asked for help, so you can get through a little more.

I lost my friends, due to bipolar, and sometimes I make new ones, but often I don’t.

I don’t want to give advice or reassurance, but if you push through the hard times then the difficult times won’t be such a challenge. I had family and friends that were upset when I had to be hospitalised or had to see a psych regularly. When family react like that it f#%king sux, but friends that are like that aren’t your friends at all.

A friend will let you be whoever you really are without limiting or pulling you up on your behaviour. I’ve spent weeks and months alone without a friend. Enjoy the time alone to reconnect with yourself and rediscover who you are.

Hope that helps.