Well It looks like I’m all alone once again in my dorm room tonight.. Worse part is I walked down to the lobby of my dormitory and saw a big group of my friends playing a card with a group of guys. Said hi and they said hi back the rest just look at me awkwardly and do I say anything no. Thinking about reopening some old scars on my thighs with one of the spare razor blades in my dresser drawer to cover the pain for a while and just move on…. Much better then break down crying and maybe get some sleep.
So what are the rest of you guys up to tonight?????
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I wish I understood self harm. Its never made me fell better. Maybe in the moment, but never tomorrow. Silly? (Mis-)Ununderstanding? Maybe.
I have cried the most prolific tears, nobody hears them. It really sucks.
Still, I’m here, I will listen. Don’t take what I say, use your brain.
-A friend
A friend- I can honestly understand your pain. Some nights I just cry at night knowing no one can hear me. Honestly not know that could probably give a shit less…..
A fake smile day to day. To try to show I’m ok. Though deep on the inside I’m dieing. I’ve been a cutter on and off since I was 15 I turn 21 7 months from now. I have some scars that have healed and fade over time and some that never healed on the inside and out. My life is good and happy right now. But if thats true then why do I still feel so miserable on the inside to the point that I wish I was dead….
Anyways thanks for listening to my rant and hope you have a good night.
-Lost Angel
Tonight im here reading posts.