Ive always felt like shit, always felt hated and ive always craved attention and i hate myself so bad for it.
Ive been bullied for years and havent told anyone. My brother felt the same way and he told me about it, instead of our parents, he then told our parents. They stopped him from going outside for weeks and they hired so many people to keep him from it, it was that way for 7 months then he got out and commited suicide. He was the only person to ever talk with me and he meant more to me than anyone else. I’ve never told anyone about this, I dont want the same thing to happen to me. Right now i dont see any reason to be in this world, everyone hates me, including myself. I’ve only just turned 13 and I’ve already tried commiting suicide about ½ a year ago and I’ve been depressed since my brother killed himself. A lot of people would say that i dont know what depression is because of my age, but I do. Not every person have been throgh so much, especially at my age…
I have nothing left, only option i have is suicide…
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good luck with whatever you end up doing. and if you leave this world then i wish you a peaceful journey sweetheart:)
I’m really sorry this has happened to you Someone. To me it’s no surprise that you feel down given what happened to your brother, it’s terribly sad. I’m sure in your shoes many would have a total meltdown. I have no advice…advice is not always helpful anyway, just wanted to let you know you’ve been heard.
If you don’t, you’ll be glad you did.
So don’t off yourself. Instead, introduce yourself to the greatness of Thrash Metal, and marijuana.
I recommend you start with Metallica’s 2nd album “Ride The Lightening.” And Evile’s first album “Enter The Grave.”
@twotif those are not reasons to live. Those are things that feel good. There is a difference.
Do not fool yourself you have more options. Suicide might be on of them but it is not the only option.
It is up to you which options you choose but know you can miss out on the best parts of life like finding love and enjoying love. I tried to kill myself in 1998 i was so glad i did not do it. In 1999 i found my everlasting love she was depended on me without me she would not have lead the life she wanted. She died 11 April i also have nothing now (no family no friends nothing but 1 friendly neighbour) and i wish we died together. But i am still here just like you. Hang on things get better!