Doctor visits and meds

He does love you, that’s why he tries to keep you from doing that. He doesn’t want you hurt yourself.

If talking to your doctor doesn’t help so much..
Try and talk to your husband. See if you can get him to help by listening.
If you are persistant to do such a thing you gotta figure out what’s making you feel like that so badly.

Also you have to be patient until the meds take effect. With these kind of things it take a long while until they take their full effect.