hi im olivia

Well, since this is my first post I don’t really know what I’m doing. So I’ll just talk about who I am and why I’m here. I am a 15 year old girl from tennessee. I have a alcholoic father who is the cause of every single problem I have in my life. I suffer from severe depression and social anxiety. I never want to leave my house for anything. I had to drop out of traditional school to do online school. I never had good grades in school and I always assumed it was because I just couldn’t focus with a bunch of kids around me. But, I’m still doing bad in online school I must just be flat out stupid. I am currently about a month clean of self-harm but I didn’t stop because I feel less depressed and want to stop I stopped because it’s getting warmer outside and don’t want to have to cover up my arms all of the time. Forcing myslef not to self-harm is one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do. i also think about suicude often. I was just googling how many pills it would take to kill yourself and stumbled across this website and thought it was interesting. So, I decided to make an account. I don’t know how much I will post though. I am quite lazy and i hate doing anything that isn’t sitting in my bed watching netflix or just sleeping. I guess this is all I’m going to write for now because its 1 am and I am very tired from a very long and very stressful day.

-O