31 make lots of money, try to be a good person yet it seems like I have a tendency to ruin every relationship now this time it was my marriage divorce is almost final. No one I meet ever understands what it’s like to feel this way I’m just fucking unhappy all the time unless I drink so much I “feel” fine until it wears off.
Therapy , psychs, meds none of it changes anything I want out…….
But then take into consideration my family how will they feel? Even my soon to be ex wife…….
Am I selfish for giving up? My whole life I’ve tried to be selfless is it fair that for once after 31 years it’s about me this time?
Tried pills when I was younger, slit my wrists a few times somehow I was always found by family members or friends that said they knew later on after talking to me earlier to check on me.