i tell you everyday how i feel, i scream to get you to look back at me as you walk away. i tell you that you are my strength, my everything yet every cell in my body is telling me that i am wrong, that had you really cared you wouldnt have abandoned me, you wouldnt take away in one day what you had given me over four years and ten months.
i cry myself to sleep every night, i wake up in the mornings unable to pull myself together and face another day. the sun is too bright and the dull days are too soul sucking, i cannot find the happiness i had once felt before.
you were there the night my life changed forever, you saved me yet now im more afraid of you than i am of my past.
you were my reason to keep trying yet now i dont have you anymore. i lost my soul mate and best friend, i lost the love of my life so how do i try, what life do i make for myself if youre not apart of it…