The past couple months for me have been the same as before: sad. Then I realized something today, I can actually change my life, like maybe I’ve actually just missed this big solution to all my problems and now, I can finally be happy, or something.
Generally, people think I’m ‘chill’, and I guess I am, on the outside that is. On the inside, I have great turmoil. You see, I’m a very pessimistic person. Small offhand comments can stay with me for weeks, months, or even years. I’m always told to start ‘thinking positive’, and I’ve tried but it never works, or maybe it’s just because I’m the type of person that easily gives up.
I am just very confused. I feel like I’m supposed to be normal, I mean, everyone else is. So why can’t I? Why do I have to get hurt over everything? Is it just ‘teenage angst’, am I just an ungrateful brat, what the hell is wrong with me and why does it make me want to kill myself?
I just want to be normal and happy.
(I am also upset over something a stranger over the internet about me; I’ve reached an all time low, guys.)
P.S. Is psychology useless? It’s pretty off topic but I’ve always wanted to be in that field and all I’ve heard about it is that it’s worthless.