should i brake up with my boyfriend?

Hey, hey… don’t bother yourself too much with your desire of death!
I can understand that sometimes it is really hard to accept that “we are alive” when we would like to be death but, look, there are plenty of (good) reasons to continue, I can ensure you that! The hard part is to find them… but you have a good thing on this side: you are not alone.

You love this guy and he loves you. If this isn’t enough for you, remember that he will always help you just give him the opportunity. Don’t “give up” with him. This is my suggestion. To “give up” would be like a double error (in my opinion): first of all you are making a person suffer (not talking about if you will commit suicide… he will be destroyed by that because all he wants is to help you, to love you, to save you) and then because without him (if he is the really one who loves you and loved by you) it will be even harder to find those reasons to continue. But them are out there. Don’t waste your chance. You are not a fail. You are not too late. Don’t give up. Don’t give up now that you are not alone. Maybe you gave up in the past but it doesn’t matter anymore, it matters what you will do now. If you can’t do it for you, do it for him but just because he will take this opportunity not as a “gift” but as a “chance” to help you.
Think carefully. The world is full of people but just one of them can change “your world”, don’t waste this chance, you will always regret it and he will always suffer because of that.

I wish you all the best, take care.