Hi. I’m new to this place but I want to get a few things off my chest, reason why I clicked on the link to this place.
I have been having struggles with public school and missing a whole lot of school. I’ve been diagnosed with moderate depression and anxiety which is a reason why I miss so much school. I have talked my parents into letting me do online school, which was good for awhile until an assignment popped up for all my courses. I had to complete a call with my teachers discussing what i’ve learned in the module. I’m not a fan of talking or confronting anybody in person or on the phone I refuse to do it. When this assignment popped up for all my courses I just stopped doing my course work because I couldn’t pass that one assignment that I would have to do after every module. I got kicked out of 2 classes due to not completing anything and its almost summer. I have no hope for the future and feel suicide is the only option in this case. I don’t want to kill myself, but this and every little piece of drama that creates this depression storm in my brain is leaning towards killing myself. I know, it seems like im just overreacting and it’s not that big of a deal but I imagine this is how some people with OCD might feel if one thing was out of place they freak out, and right now im freaking out due to this little assignment. I’m in 7th grade and I don’t want to repeat the grade. I’m terrified at this point and I have no where else to run. My parents are threatening to send me back to public school which is giving more suicidal thoughts and I can’t take it anymore. I just want to be fine and happy and not have to deal with any of this. I’ve lost count of how many times i’ve prayed for a change and something that will help me through this but, I just don’t know anymore….