who fukin cares

My cat is my best friend and my mother, my children are awesome but live with their mom, big accomplishment from a 37 year old male! Been completely alone for a few days and have spent much time pondering the remainder of my crippled life. I survived a motorcycle accident in 2011, have T.B.I. that has affected motor skills on my right side. I can go on about how drastically my life has changed in what seems a blink of an eye but who really gives a fuck! I do not want this existence, I’m %100 cognitive, very intelligent but everyday I stare down the barrel of my handgun and wonder why I fear pulling the trigger. I’m physically crippled, can no longer do my hobbies, money is tight, no women wants a crippled guy even though I’m nice, respectful, good looking, have a beautiful apartment, my dick works and have dreams and goals but they are fading quick. I don’t even know why I’m posting, guess I just need to vent. I was so courageous now I can’t pull a simple trigger. Hats off to all that are successful, I’d back up anyone’s decision to leave this shitty place!