That’s all I have ever wanted to be; a faithful wife. Sadly, having had you in my life, this will never happen. The only desire in my heart for my entire life has been to simply devote myself completely to someone else and now I know that this will never happen. The depression and anxiety have been eating me alive for years but I hung on with the hope that I would eventually fulfill my dream. Now that this can’t happen, I struggle to even get out of bed in the morning. Oh, I have also since developed bulimia and attempted suicide (though the last time I promised myself I would never try that again). I constantly feel angry and every little thing bothers me. I can’t feel anything good anymore, I simply feel empty and listless. I struggle to get out of bed in the morning and worst of all, I no longer believe in love. My life had little meaning before and now it has absolutely none. I have tried to do things like go back to school, volunteer, change jobs, try meditation, etc. and nothing has been able to fill the void. There is a constant nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach every minute of every day and I don’t know what else to do to fix it. Therapy and a variety of medication have not helped either. I’m physically exhausted yet I can’t sleep. I am at the end of my rope and I feel that I have no avenues left to take. Now that I have failed at suicide (again), I feel absolutely lost. Where to now?